Thursday, December 15, 2011

Franzie Has Tiny Hands?

Wednesday morning I had an appointment. It was the first one I went by myself, so all the waiting was quite boring. I saw Dr. Franz this visit and he was super nice. I had heard about his strange small hands, so when he shook my hand I made sure to take notice! Haha! They were rather small and stumpy and were kind of sideshow looking. I hear his vaginal "inspection" is not so comfortable. Luckily this was just a check up. I haven't gained any weight yet and Franzie said I could gain up to 30 pounds!! No chance Franzie!!! I do need to get into a good exercise routine though. As soon as it was time to find the heartbeat it popped right up. I was so relieved. It was in the 160's so nice and strong. We go next month on the 18th to find out the sex! We are so so excited and can hardly wait. We have no clue what we will be having. I think though we have already decided on names (quite amazing it happened so quick! Lol)but who knows they could always change!! I have been feeling pretty good although brushing my teeth is still a challenge. Headaches are getting better and energy is picking up a bit. I am thankful to be having pregnancy symptoms, so I know my little peanut is growing. I will be 14 weeks tomorrow and am excited to officially usher in the second trimester!! I will see Dr. McKinney (my ob) in four weeks. Super stoked for each passing month!! Now we are busy getting ready for the holidays!!

P.s. my little brother and his girlfriend have decided on the name Madelyn Ann! She is going to be so cute and perfect!!

P.s.s. Alexis finally came out with her news and I am excited to say she is my preggo twin!! Lol!! We are both due June 15th! What are the odds!? Congrats Rojas family!!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Christmas Came Early!!

WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!

I can still hardly believe it. Today makes me 12 weeks and 5 days. We are beyond excited and in disbelief every day! For those of you following this blog, you know the struggles and heartache we have gone through these past two and a half years. I was all set to have my surgery mid November. I was late and had a weird feeling and took a test one morning....two pink lines....I was shocked...Josh brought home a digital....pregnant! I could not believe what I was seeing but there it was plain as day! This baby came all by itself, no meds, no surgery, no intervention...a true gift from God.

My first trimester was not too tough. I had zero energy and did a whole lot of dry heaving of the sink, toilet or a bowl. I threw up one time in the Bank of America parking lot behind the dumpster. Not my classiest moment. Lol

We want to thank every single one of our amazing family members, friends and co-workers who have supported us and prayed for us through all of this. We can't wait to share more of this incredible journey with you all. Our due date is June 15, 2012. Stay tuned..... =)

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Another Geddings Girl! =)

I am so excited to be welcoming another little niece in 2012! My little brother Paul and his sweet girlfriend Alyssa will be welcoming a daughter in April! We are so happy for them and can't wait to see another beautiful girl!! =) They have not decided on a name yet, but I will keep you all posted!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Surgery Scheduled!

Long time no blog! There hasn't really been any new news lately except that my brother Joel and his wife Meredith are expecting a little GIRL February 10, 2012! Her name is Kaisley Reese, and we are all very excited for her arrival! Also, Josh's brother Travis got engaged!! We are so thrilled for him and Katie!! <3

I have finally gotten my surgery scheduled. Thursday November 17th in the morning. I will be having it done at Sacred Heart Hospital in Pensacola, FL. The procedures I am getting are a diagnostic laparoscopy/hysteroscopy (google away! lol). It should take about 90 minutes total as long as there are no complications...with my luck who knows what could happen! Haha! I am very excited and also extremely nervous since I have never had to be put under before.

I have heard many success stories after this surgery was done and great things about this hospital. I am sure I will be in good hands! Thank you all for your love and continued support!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

A Break From Blogging....

As some of you already know Josh and I had a chemical pregnancy. This is basically a very early miscarriage at about 4 1/2 weeks. I have decided to take a break from blogging as we figure out what direction we will be going next.

The past (almost) two years have been some of the hardest times for us, and I am still trying to process everything from our recent loss. I may not be blogging again until something actually works or we try something a lot more intense.

So until next time, thank you all for reading and your support =)

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy 4th of July!!!

Josh and I are enjoying the summer as we wait for our most recent results!! Two weekends ago we went tubing down Bear Paw with some friends. We had such a fun, relaxing time! This past weekend we got a little pool action and grilled some yummy steaks with my brother and sis n law. The next couple of months are going to be super busy!

Amanda's bridal shower is coming up on the 17th and we leave the next day for our THIRD Britany Spears concert. I am soooooo excited this one should be amazing and is in Atlanta! In September we have Amanda's Bachelorette Party in Panama City. The next month is Amanda and JP's big day and the start of the holiday season! Yikes where did 2011 go??

Congrats to Kristi and Jason!! Baby Tyler was born July 3rd!!! =)))) 

Monday, June 13, 2011

Wednesday is the Day!

Today I saw Abby and she said Wednesday is the day for the insemination! I am very nervous but also super excited! I think I am most nervous about Josh having to give me my HCG shot Wednesday morning. All I can think about is that Jennifer Lopez movie "The Backup Plan" when she gets inseminated and walks out all funny trying to hold it in! Haha!

Only bad thing, well not that bad of thing, is that I still am only working with one mature follicle...so we will see if the IUI will work with just one. If this fails, Laproscopy surgery is next...let's keep our fingers crossed!

Friday, June 3, 2011

Hot Hot Hot!!!

Well Summer has begun in full force already here in Tallahassee with temperatures reaching 95-101 every day with one day of rain in the past couple of weeks! I am kind of glad I'm not pregnant right now like many of my friends because I am sure it would be miserable!!

I start my next round of Femara tonight, two pills a night for about five nights. If everything goes as planned, I will be inseminated in about two weeks. I finished reading the book "What He Can Expect When She's Not Expecting." Even though it's for the husbands, I wanted to see what the man's prospective was. Everything in the books, besides the stuff about IVF I could relate to. It is really interesting to read something and say "yep I did that or said that or am that way." Josh is a couple of chapters in and I can't wait until he finishes it so we can talk about the whole book and not piece by piece. I highly recommend this book to anyone undergoing fertility treatments.

In the book it talked about how technical all the procedures make it, when getting pregnant and having a baby should just be a natural thing. I really relate to that because you know what your body is doing and what you need to do every step of the way. When I ever do finally become pregnant, I will know the exact day and time that it happened. So that will be much different than a normal conception. Oh well to each their own I guess!

I just found out the other day that another one of my friends is pregnant. This will be her second. I think this brings my count up to about six now. I guess that is how it is though as you get older. Someone is either getting married or getting pregnant. I turned 25 on May 24th and just couldn't believe how old it made me feel. I know it's not that old and I have older friends I don't consider them old, but I guess that's just one of those things! =)

Thank you all for you love and support!!!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Awesome Article for the Hubby's

I found this great article on cnn.com written by TV and film comedy writer Marc Sedaka is also the author of "What He Can Expect When She's Not Expecting: How to Support Your Wife, Save Your Marriage, and Conquer Infertility!" The Sedakas' have twin daughters and a son.

It gives some great advice to the Hubby's!!

CNN) -- "Hey, did I tell you my old girlfriend's pregnant?"
It doesn't take a genius to know that you probably shouldn't share that information with your wife. But it takes an absolute moron to share it with a wife who's spent the past six years of her life trying to get pregnant.
Allow me to introduce myself. I'm a moron. Or at least, I used to be.
For almost seven years, I stumbled, flopped, backpedaled and apologized while my wife went from one failed infertility procedure to another.
It's not that I didn't care. It's just that I didn't know ... what to do, how to act, who to be. And, amazingly, there wasn't that much information out there to help me.
So now that I'm on the other side of all this (and the father of three beautiful children), let me share with you the five most important things to remember when your wife is going through infertility.

1) Communicate.
 Yes, you've heard it all before. Communication is a vital component of any marriage. But never so much as when you're in the throes of infertility.
From the first twinge of concern to the last IVF treatment, you have to make sure your voice is heard, and make sure hers is heard as well.
First off, confirm that you both want the same things before you so much as step into a fertility doctor's waiting room.
You might think it best to keep your opinions to yourself right now, but believe me, it's a lot better to air those concerns before you invest all this time, money and energy than after.
No wife wants to hear that you never really wanted kids when she just had a painful steel probe stuck up her ... well, you get the point.
And don't assume that your wife is going to initiate all these discussions, either. In fact, this might be the only time in your marriage when she's even more closed off than you are.
This is because many women consider infertility to be a shameful topic. And, because of it, there's a good chance your wife is feeling scared, embarrassed and inadequate.
So it's up to you to assume that these feelings exist and keep those lines of communication open. You can't know how to help her unless you know what she needs.

2) Empathize.
Don't just sympathize, empathize. The last thing your wife wants right now is pity.
In my own case, I used to get my wife flowers after every failed IVF (we had nine), and after maybe the fifth or sixth, she finally confessed that the flowers weren't making her feel better.
In fact, they were just a sad reminder of how she had failed. Pity flowers, as it were.
Now, maybe your wife loves flowers. Maybe she'll find the gesture endearing.
But if you have to put your money into something, better to put it into something that celebrates your successful marriage (let's say a romantic dinner at your wife's favorite restaurant) rather than mourn the temporary failure to conceive children.

3) Set unbreakable goals. Be willing to break them.
Conviction is great. A single-minded purpose is great. But you have to be willing to shift gears as the situation warrants, and you have to make sure your wife is willing to do so, as well.
I cannot stress enough that infertility is a process. And yesterday's "never in a million years" may easily become tomorrow's "I want it more than anything."
So, for example, when you feel like shouting "I'll never adopt!" consider altering that to a more open-minded "I'm not ready to adopt."
Your point will still be heard, your priorities will still be addressed, but you'll save yourselves heaps of stress and aggravation should your wife be of a different mindset right now.

4) Put your machismo aside.
We're men. We never admit wrongdoing. We never ask for directions. And we never surrender to anything that may emasculate us, embarrass us or otherwise jeopardize our prized masculinity. All well and good.
But not in the world of infertility. Don't want to take the semen analysis test? Too bad. Feel uncomfortable discussing your personal life with the nosy doctor? Get over it. Infertility is demoralizing, invasive and messy. That's just the way it is. Sorry.
The bottom line is -- and you know it's true -- you're just going to wind up doing all the stuff anyway, so are you really helping anybody by putting up a stink? Probably not.
Plus, as hard as this might be to believe, by being a willing participant, you're actually being a bigger man.

5) Share the burden
Remember when you walked down the aisle and said all those words about better or worse and sickness and health? Well, nowhere are those words more fitting than when you're going through infertility.
There is no "she is infertile." There is no "her last test failed." It is "we," and it is "us." Probably more than any other time in your marriage, your wife needs her partner now. An equal, split-down-the-middle, 50/50 partner.
One who is as willing to share the credit as he is to share the blame. Anything less is unacceptable. Anything less, and you're not even worthy of her.
Remember these points, and never forget them. Put them on stone tablets if you have to. They may very well save your marriage.
And this is coming from a guy who knows.

Monday, May 9, 2011

New Plan

Happy Two Year Anniversary to Us!! <3

Time has just flown by these past two years! I feel like it was just yesterday that I was saying "I do" to my best friend!

We had our appointment today and have a new game plan....

I will start a birth control pill tonight and take it until the end of May. I will start my period and then take letrozol (ovulation stimulator) for 5 days. I will then get checked every couple of days, and then get my hcg trigger shot once my follicle(s) have matured. We will then be inseminated (josh brings in a semen sample and it is injected into the fallopian tubes through a catheter...fun stuff) lol....If I am not pregnant by the end of June, then I will have the Laproscopy surgery done to check for any scar tissue, endemetriosis etc. which would be in July some time. In the mean time, Josh is getting his semen checked one more time with a different procedure...forget the name. My doctor is very optimistic about this treatment plan and I am feeling good about it. He in no way thinks I need IVF at this young age and wasn't too enthused about the hormone injections either. So I am feeling really good that he has our best interest at heart and we are not just paying his salary!! haha

Friday, May 6, 2011

Seven Months

Today marks seven months since we started fertility treatments...I have kind of gotten to a place in my mind where I am getting super frustrated and discouraged. I am hoping that after our appointment on Monday I will bounce back and feel better about the process. I think I am just putting too much pressure on myself since I know that everything with Josh is ok, I on the other hand feel like my body is "broken."

I will be turning 25 this month and just don't understand why I have these troubles of getting pregnant at such a young age. When you hear about women with fertility problems, you think women in their 40's etc. I know that everyone is different, but I just see all the baby bumps popping out all the time and I'm getting anxious!

I hope everyone has a great weekend and I will blog again Monday some time to let you all know what will happen next!!!

Monday, April 25, 2011

D-Day

Today was another blood test....an another negative. I am starting to get used to seeing the negative, who knows how I will react when I actually get a positive! I had taken a test yesterday, so I already knew the outcome of the test. I was still holding on to that one shred of hope though that it was a false negative. No such luck! Abby, the ARNP, that I see every time sounded just about as disappointed as I am feeling. It really makes me feel that they really do care about their patients and I am being treated at the right place.

I made an appointment for me and Josh to go talk about our next plan of action on May 9th. Which also happens to be our 2 year anniversary!! We will discuss injections as well as IVF I believe, but who knows what will be right for us. Please continue to keep us in your prayers as we reach uncharted waters and rising costs! Lol

So after a little bit of an intermission, we will continue on this long hard journey and hopefully some day see it come to an end!! =)

Friday, April 22, 2011

*-*-*Waiting Game*-*-*

So I ended up again only having one mature follicle. I know that you only need one, but for me it seems that is not enough. But who knows, maybe this time one will work. I still have a few days until I find out if it worked or not. I will probably test the day before again like last time so that I will be prepared.

Last night we went over to my moms for dinner and a play date with Katie and baby Jonah! He is growing so much!! He's starting to get chunky and smiles a big gummy smile.

This weekend is Easter and I am really looking forward to having it at our house this year! Josh and I will spend Saturday preparing the house and coloring eggs. We just love our new house so much and really enjoy having people over now. Josh is so excited to get to use the fire pit he built!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Grow Follies, Grow!!

I had an appointment yesterday with my Dr. after doing the three pills a night for five nights. I have really been getting some serious hot flashes and headaches from this round of meds. I had three good sized follies, two that measured 10 and one that measured 12. This was really good because usually I am a really slow grower! I have another appointment on Friday and am hoping that they have a significant growth spurt so that I can go ahead and get my trigger shot and get busy of the weekend....I have been told by a couple of my fertility buddies that Preseed lube is the way to go, so I will try to find some tomorrow!

I am starting to feel some pain in my right ovary today which is a good sign! My left ovary never produces any follies, so my right one is working hard for me! So hopefully we will see some progress on the screen on Friday! Fingers crossed that 4th round will be the winner!!

I am still scared of the thought of another miscarriage, but I am trying to put that in the back of my mind and just think about making a baby first!! Thanks again to everyone for your thoughts and prayers!!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Family & Friends

This past weekend two of Josh's brothers came in town. We had a really great time!! They arrived on Thursday evening just in time for St. Patty's Day! We went downtown to Irish Fest and then to Julies for some kareoke! We had a great time, maybe a little too much fun for some of us!

Friday we went to brunch at Another Broken Egg, which was fabulous of course, and visited my sister-in-law Meredith at the Capitol. She is the House Photographer so we got a behind the scenes tour of the Chamber and such! She even took a great picture!

Travis, Josh, Emily, Jeremiah

We then went over to the Supreme Court where we got another behind the scenes tour from my friend Alexis as well as one of the security guards there. All in all it was a great experience for our out of towners as well as for me and Josh. 18 + years living in Tallahassee and I had never been to either! After a quick stop at Tropical Smoothie, we showed the guys our new house we will be moving into on April 1st! We were so happy to see even more progress made on the house and cannot wait until moving day! Friday night was a delish dinner at Bonefish Grill with Alexis and Kyle followed by some intense games of Spoons and Kings! I broke 2 nails and chipped every nail on my right hand...we are all a little competative! Needless to say we were up until 4:30 am which never happens these days!! Soooo much fun!!

Saturday morning the boys went to Another Broken Egg again and I stayed home for some R&R. When they got home we headed to pick up my mom for bowling! We played quite a few games. Of course I was WINNING that day! I won one single game and Josh and I beat Travis and Jeremiah in our teams competition! After bowling it was off to meet Joel, Meredith, Anna and her sister at El Jalisco for mexican food and margaritas! It was yummy of course and we even told our server it was Jeremiah's birthday so he could get the full El Jalisco experience! After dinner we headed over to Joel and Meredith's for some family fun! Meredith's sister Britany, her husband Matt and their little boy Trace came over. We had a really great time playing some games and hanging out.

The boys had to leave at 5:30 Sunday morning. We really enjoyed having them here with us and can't wait until next time (possibly next month). We will be in our new place by then so we will have more room, and maybe have people to our house next time! Thank you to everyone who helped us show our guests a great time!!! xoxo

Now I am back to concentrating all of my energy on my next cycle. I have started the birth control pill that I will take until the 27th. So maybe 4th time will be a charm and we will have some positive action in the beginning of April!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Another Month, Another Negative

So another negative test to add to the millions we already have seen! I already knew it was negative since I took a test yesterday, but I still got the blood test today just in case. You always hold on to that glimmer of hope for that false negative. I was bummed yesterday, but not today since I already knew the outcome. It was a lot easier seeing it alone and knowing ahead of time instead of getting the call at work and retreating to the bathroom for twenty minutes.

I talked with Abby, my Nurse Practitioner that I see every time I go, about 15 minutes ago. She called to break the news. She said she wants to try  one more time with the same medication and up the dosage again. She will start me on day three of my cycle instead of day five and keep me on it for longer than five days. Our goal is to produce more than one mature follicle. I am crossing my fingers for this fourth try because the next step would be injections.

I am trying to be patient, but it's hard seeing the months go by...oh well I'll just have to keep a smile on my face and keep on trying! =) I am so thankful to have such an amazing, supportive man at my side through all of this! xoxo

Monday, February 28, 2011

Medication Info

Since I haven't had much to report, well actually I am just being stingy with my info, I googled some info on the meds and things that I have been using. It will give you more insite on the monthly process I go through! I have an appointment today at 1:00 to check out my follicles. I am hoping to have more than one mature one this time around! I tested positive on my Ovulation Test today, so we are crossing our fingers.

Letrozole for Infertility Treatment: Background information

Letrozole is being used commonly as an infertility treatment. Letrozole is the most recent addition to the drugs being used for fertility treatment. Fertility drugs are used often in infertility treatments. There are two situations in which fertility drugs may be useful. First, these drugs can be used to induce an egg to develop and be released in women who are not ovulating on their own. This is known as ovulation induction. Fertility drugs can also be used to increase the chances of pregnancy in women who are already ovulating. This is known as superovulation . In many fertility centers, clomiphene citrate (Clomid, Serophene) has been the drug of first choice for either ovulation induction or superovulation for many years. In general, it has been a relatively effective medication. However, clomiphene citrate lasts for a long time in the body and may therefore have an adverse effect on the cervical mucus and uterine lining. Some groups of patients, such as women with PCOS – polycystic ovary syndrome, do not respond well to clomiphene citrate. Another group of fertility drugs which are administered as injections are called gonadotropins (Gonal F, Follistim). The gonadotropins are very efficient at inducing ovulation and have higher pregnancy rates than clomiphene citrate. However, gonadotropins are much more expensive than clomiphene citrate and the injectable route is uncomfortable for patients to administer and inconvenient. The risk for multiple pregnancies is also much higher with gonadotropins.

Letrozole is a medication that has been widely used in women with breast cancer. It is sold under the trade name Femara. Letrozole belongs to a class of medications known as aromatase inhibitors.

Recently, the manufacturer of Letrozole sent a notice to doctors warning that there are reported cases of birth defects that arose in the children of women who received Letrozole while pregnant. Novartis, the manufacturer of letrozole, reviewed their safety database and found 13 reports of pregnant women receiving the drug worldwide. Of those 13 women, two had children with birth defects. In the United States, the labeling of letrozole already warns that it has been associated with birth defects. Novartis has never sought FDA approval to market letrozole as a fertility medication and is clearly concerned about their liability if given in pregnancy.

However, there are no reports of letrozole being associated with birth defects when given prior to pregnancy. It is important to make the distinction that when used as a fertility medication, letrozole is given before the establishment of pregnancy. Letrozole is a medication that is metabolized rapidly in the body. It is not thought to have significant levels in the blood or tissues for a prolonged period of time.

At least one major pharmaceutical company, Serono, is conducting studies with a similar medication called anastrozole in the hopes of obtaining FDA approval to market it specifically as a fertility medication.

Aromatase is an enzyme that is responsible for the production of estrogen in the body. Letrozole works by inhibiting aromatase thereby suppressing estrogen production.
Clomiphene citrate, on the other hand, blocks estrogen receptors. In both cases, the result is that the pituitary gland produces more of the hormones needed to stimulate the ovaries. These hormones, FSH and LH, can cause the development of ovulation in women who are anovulatory or increase the number of eggs developing in the ovaries of women who already ovulate. As a result, several studies have now been published using letrozole as a fertility drug.

One of the earliest studies using letrozole as a fertility drug looked at 12 women with inadequate response to
clomiphene citrate. Ovulation on letrozole occurred in 9 of 12 cycles and 3 patients conceived. A later study by the same investigators compared the effects of letrozole to those of clomiphene citrate. This time 19 women were studied. Ten women received clomiphene citrate and nine women received letrozole. This study was unable to demonstrate any difference in the number of women who ovulated, the number of eggs that developed in each woman, or the thickness of the uterine lining during treatment. However, a more recent study by a different group of investigators found that compared with clomiphene citrate, letrozole is associated with a thicker uterine lining and a lower miscarriage rate.

Nobody has yet identified the optimal dose for letrozole. Three dose regimens have been tested: 2.5 mg, 5 mg and 7.5 mg. Different studies comparing these dose regimens have occasionally found favor with one dose or another but there is no conclusive data that one dose is better than another. The usual length of treatment is for five days.

Some early studies suggested that the pregnancy rates with letrozole far exceeded those with
clomiphene citrate and were possibly even higher than gonadotropins. Further data has determined that this is not the case. Pregnancy rates with letrozole are similar to those seen with clomiphene citrate and are lower than the pregnancy rates seen with gonadotropins. Older patients have a lower chance of success than younger patients.

Treatment with letrozole may still be successful even if other treatments have failed. For example, some data shows that in women who did not ovulate with clomiphene citrate, they still may ovulate with letrozole.

Letrozole side effects

Letrozole works based on its ability reduce estrogen levels. Low estrogen levels of any cause can cause a woman to have symptoms. The data on side effects comes from women who have been using letrozole for an extended period of time in order to treat breast cancer. The treatment duration for letrozole is only five days. In our experience, we have seen side effects that are similar to those seen with clomiphene citrate:

  • Hot flashes




  • Headaches




  • Breast tenderness



  • Letrozole and pregnancy

    Studies conducted so far have shown either no increased risk of miscarriage or a decrease in miscarriage risk. Letrozole is considered pregnancy Category D. Letrozole should not be given to women who are already pregnant. Studies in rats and mice have shown that letrozole increases the risk of fetal death and malformations. Since there are no studies in human beings, it should be assumed that a similar effect is possible.

    Letrozole Fertility Treatment Protocols

    Monitoring with ovulation predictor kits and having intercourse only.

    1. Call the office on Day 1 of your period.
    2. Day 2 or 3 - Office visit- Blood test and ultrasound.
    3. Take the letrozole 2.5 mg tablet on days 5,6,7,8, and 9.
    4. Start testing urine on the morning of day 10 or 11.
    5. Look for the first definite color change. Do not continue to test after the color change.
    6. Have intercourse the same day you see the color change and the next day.
    7. Call the office when you see the color change. Schedule an appointment approximately one week later for a blood test to verify ovulation

    Monday, February 14, 2011

    Happy and not so Happy Valentine's Day....

    Saturday afternoon Josh and I headed to Apalachicola to the Coombs Inn Bed & Breakfast. The drive was beautiful and it took us less than two hours to get there. The room we got, The Hemingway, was amazing and included a 2 person jacuzzi tub and a separate sitting room.


    We explored the town for a while and looked around at all the unique shops. We had a snack at That Place Off 98 that included shrimp cocktail and soup...yes I know weird combo, but it was delicious! We had dinner at another restaurant, can't think of the name. I had Ahi Tuna and Josh had some yummy shrimp! We also enjoyed a wine tasting at the Bed & Breakfast!
    Apparently we didn't get the memo that you aren't supposed to put bubbles in a jacuzzi tub and ended up having more bubbles than water in the tub. Needless to say that makes your bath time less than enjoyable!! lol


    Sunday morning we had a great breakfast at the B & B that included a bacon and spinach quiche and some fruit. They also had bagels, muffins, cereal and many other things to choose from. After breakfast we went on a bike ride. It was pretty nice except Josh could not seem to connect with his bikes because both of them broke!! Haha!! It was pretty fun and we had some really great laughs. We did a little more exploring and then picked up our picnic basket and headed to the beach! St. George Island was only about 15 minutes away. We drove to the state park and found a private spot on the beach. The weather was perfect and we enjoyed sandwiches, chips, fruit etc.


    We had a crazy seagull not too far from us that would "yell" at every bird that came near it. It was like our own little body guard! We also saw some dolphins. There were about 7 or 8 that we spotted. After we finished at the beach we parked the car back at the room and went for some homemade gelato. It was excellent, I got mint chocolate chip and Josh got coffee!


    After relaxing in the room for a while it was time to get ready for a nice dinner. We had dinner at The Verandas. It was amazing!! We had Lobster and Crab Bisque Soup, Salad and a yummy bottle of Riesling. Josh ordered out side of the box and ordered Duck! It was soooo good!! I ordered a Filet Mignon with mushrooms and some roasted red potatoes and vegetables. It was definitely one of the best meals I've ever had! After dinner we relaxed in the jacuzzi tub, minus the bubbles, and watched the Grammys and talked and such ;)

    It was a really amazing weekend to just be together alone and talk and spend some really great time together!!


    This morning we had another yummy breakfast at the B & B and packed our things to head out. The drive home was going really well and we were to get home around 11:30. We noticed though that every time we were completely stopped the car would start shaking. When we would go, we would hear a big water swooshing noise. So Josh took the car to Joel to look at. He told him that he thinks it's the radiator and that a gasket blew. This really stinks because as some of you know, about this same time last year our engine blew up. This vehicle has been causing us nothing but problems so I may be looking for a way to get rid of it. Only problem is that I'm not really into the whole using 1 car thing.


    I'm trying to stay positive and just think about my next doc appointment on Wednesday. I really hope that my body will have made some progress! I have been taking my pills two a night for a couple nights now and I am hoping it works! If all goes well I will be getting my HCG trigger shot this time next week!!

    Friday, February 11, 2011

    1 Week Later....

    So it has now been a week since my let down of not being pregnant. I have gotten over the disappointment pretty quick thanks to some really amazing friends and family. I just thank God every day for how blessed I am to have these people in our lives.

    I had an appointment yesterday (Thursday) and we discussed our next plan of action. I decided that I wanted to just jump right back into it and not waste time trying! So I will be doing the pills again, but double the dosage, and then I will get the HCG trigger shot again. I am looking forward to this round of treatment and pray it will be a success!!

    With the double dosage, as with any fertility treatment, there is a higher chance to have twins. That does not scare me at all knowing the amazing support we have around us.

    I went to visit a friend and her new baby boy this week. He was born on Josh's birthday, January 27th, and he is soooo beautiful. I got to hold him and touch his soft blond hair. It is such an amazing feeling hold a newborn that little and just watching them sleep. I haven't been able to stop thinking about him since. He has been on my mind all week. I just can't wait until it's my turn to have that feeling and it last a lifetime.



    Excited for a Valentine's Day adventure with the hubby this weekend...we will be back Monday and I will tell you all about it! =)

    Friday, February 4, 2011

    Those Two Evil Words

    All of you out there that have had the pleasure of trying and trying to conceive know exactly the two words...NOT PREGNANT. Those are the two most evil words you can see or hear together during this kind of journey. Those are the two words I heard today.


    I was kind of preparing myself for this outcome, but it was really hard to hear the confirmation. I shed a few tears which stunk because I am at work and now feel like a hot mess. I know though that I have a ton of people that encourage me daily. I know it will happen for us but the waiting and all the treatment wears on you.


    My next plan of action is not set in stone yet and I will probably have a more definite plan next week, but they may just double up my medication that produces Follicles so that I will have a better chance of conceiving the next try. I will then get the HCG trigger shot like this last time to stimulate ovulation.


    This treatment plan is not very expensive at all since I have insurance that covers the Meds and so on, but the $25 co-pay sometimes three times a week adds up pretty quickly. I am thankful though right now that I have this treatment option. We are not doing IUI's yet, but I am thinking that will probably be the next option if this doesn't work next time.


    Again, thank you to everyone for the amazing support you have provided for me and Josh we couldn't do it without you! =)

    Wednesday, January 19, 2011

    Maybe?...No

    So I had ANOTHER appointment this week to check to see if I can get my HCG injection and again I'm growing slow. Lol...I have been going three days a week for the past three weeks and am becoming very impatient. I guess I need to work on patience, because when we finally do have our little bundle of joy I'll need that. So I will be returning for yet another appointment on Friday, and they tell me that I should be ready by then! Fingers crossed!! That would make for a very important weekend for me and Josh! ; )

    Also, this week and last there has been a TON of baby announcements. While sometimes it is hard to hear the news, I am so happy for each and every one of these lucky ladies! It is so easy to go to a place of why not me, but I am learning to look past that and remember it will come when it is right for us! Maybe God knows that when I do finally get pregnant and want to announce it that I need the spot light on only me!! HAHA! Just Kidding... =)

    Until next time..... ; )

    Tuesday, January 18, 2011

    NewLIFE

    Here is a little info as well as the link to the web page about the Fertility Clinic that I am using. The staff is really great and they make the experience very comfortable. I would recommend them to every one I know. They have three different locations.

    www.fertilityleaders.com


    About New Leaders In Fertility & Endocrinology: A Unique Practice
    Our Mission: "NewLIFE" strives to gently escort couples from the ambiguity of infertility to diagnosis and options for a successful conception in the least disruptive and most cost-effective manner possible.

    Our Philosophy
    NewLIFE believes that couples are entitled to seek diagnostic testing that may provide the most accurate advice when seeking treatment.  Couples are provided honest counseling regarding treatment options and outcomes but then are allowed to make their own well-informed decisions. Contrary to fertility programs that may screen couples to improve the appearance of their success rates, we feel that this would be inconsistent with our medical and ethical commitments.

    NewLIFE provides couples with access to the ONLY fellowship trained and board certified physician providing fertility services in the Florida Panhandle. Offering the most advanced technologies in this comfortable and beautiful setting of Florida's Gulf Coast further distinguishes New Life as a desirable location for many couples to receive their care.

    Our Facilities and Communities
    With services beginning in 1994, NewLIFE has located and maintained its main office in the demographic center of Pensacola, Florida. At this facility, consultations are provided and the complete array of infertility tests including endocrinology and andrology are performed. NewLIFE provides all advanced reproductive services including IVF at one comfortable location within a convenient and soothing office setting.

    The need for improved patient access to fertility care prompted our expansion to four fully staffed office facilities in Panama City, Tallahassee and our latest additions in Mobile, Alabama and Plantation, Fl to better serve South Florida's populous cities of Ft. Lauderdale, Miami and West Palm Beach. Surrounding coastal communities now enjoy greatly eased access to NewLIFE's specialized services. For patients in Mobile, NewLIFE is Mobile’s only option for an American Board-certified fertility specialist with complete ART services. Addresses and directions to these offices may be found on the locations page of the website.

    Our Professional Service
    Convenience is important to everyone these days.  NewLIFE has developed an “online” submission for new patients saving time and paper. Couples are then able to meet with the staff to begin their evaluation more quickly and accurately with minimal disruption to their careers and daily activities. At NewLIFE patients will receive in-depth and unhurried consultations where both partners are encouraged to attend for what often lasts more than one hour. This kind of attention is essential to make patients comfortable and confident to ultimately deliver their desired results.

    Monday, January 17, 2011

    The Beginning

    Josh and I have been married for almost two years and suffered a miscarriage four months after we got married. We have been trying to conceive ever since the miscarriage in September 2009. After a year of trying on our own we have sought the help of a fertility specialist. We started seeing them in October 2010 and did all the testing. They confirmed that I have PCOS and that my body does not ovulate on its own. They started me on a round of Clomid and we hoped for the best. Unfortunately that was not successful. I am now in the middle of my second cycle taking a fertility pill, Femera, and getting a HCG injection soon. We are hoping that this method will be successful because as all of you trying know that it gets very expensive when you need fertility treatment. I am hoping that through blogging and communicating with others that are going through this I can be hopeful that my time will come soon.